Saturday, October 20, 2007
Retrospection
PLUGS: Everyone
EDIT**
On a lighter note for my blog, Ate Kitty still remembers me and gave me this UUBBERR CUUTEE Halloween giftie and a fabulous award!! Sniff... thank you soo much Ate for remembering me!! I've been such a sloth in the blogging world and yet you still remembered me....Yey for witches!! hehe
This is such a bad way to go back to blogging but I needed to vent my... confusions. I feel so angry and alone all the time that it somehow threatens to shatter the sphere that I've surrounded myself in. I want to let it out but I can't. I'm so confused now with my life, my friends, and my ideals. I feel like I don't know anyone anymore and I feel like I'm being selfish for thinking of this. I feel so jealous too for no goshdarn reason. I want i want i want, it's all i ever think about? Am I deprived from luxuries? No! I try so hard to think of people less fortunate than I am but how come the feeling won't leave? Please God I hope that I am not straying from your path.
I feel like such a failure. I try to project to people that I'm strong or whatever, you know, the tough guy effect but I don't know how I can pull it off much l0nger. No this isn't a suicidal thing, I'm too chicken to kill myself. I guess I'm just depressed. I need to find my path again. I need to reflect on my life.... I wish I could go somewhere and think this over....
God sees the truth but waits... waits for what? Does God wait for us? I think He does. He waits for us to find ourselves... but I hope that God can hear me... I can't find myself alone... I hope He does help me...
See ya guys.... ='(
Labels: depressed, gifts, morbid
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THE THIEF*
OFFICIAL I.D.: Tiffany K
A.K.A.: Tiff, Tiff k, Panda, Tifferz, Tiffy (anything BUT fifi)
AGE PROB: 17
WHERE'S MY CAKE?: June 5, 1990
REFERENCE POINT: On a little island (an archipelago in fact) called Philippines. MABUHAY EVERYONE!
ETHNIC TRIBE: I'm a Chinese-Filipino by blood. Filipino by citizen
RELIGION: a devout Catholic who has faith in the Lord
LIVES BY..: If you want a miracle, BE THE MIRACLE!!! if you want something done, sometimes you have to take it in your own hands. And remember to have FAITH in God
WEIRD QUOTES (by me): Dang, OML, OMG, What the, SHOOT, Crap, crikes, oh shoot,Ai yohh
CONTACT: If you need anything or have any questions, please contact me at tiffdweirdsmiley@yahoo.com
BOOKLOVER'S PLACE:
HARRY POTTER FAN:
I am worth $1,602,050 on HumanForSale.com???
HISTORY:
I decided I'd make a history for my site so that you'd all know the whys and the hows. I will elaborate further when I have my REAL site one day. So when did this "addiction" start? Well it was many years ago (maybe not THAT many, about 2-3 years ago) when my keypal Kelli (HI KELLI!) told me to check out this thing. It turned out to be a xanga blog and I was intrigued but I wasn't interested in making one. After a year though, exactly on October 29, 2004, I came across Kelli's blog again and had a sudden itch to try it out. I signed up in xanga and wrote my very first entry. My URL was http://xanga.com/jynxypanda and it's still alive! Check it out if you want, I've transformed it into a photoblog of some sort. I started out with this PLAIN red and black template and of course, I eventually got bored with it. I then searched for skins both in createblog and blogskins. I was happy with xanga but then I saw Steph's new blog in blogger. I was amazed at her skills already in making layouts and HTML so I asked tips from her and then I started my blogger account. This was the time I started getting interested in HTML. Steph also referred to me Lissaexplains.com for tutorials and I researched on my own by reading this gigantic HTML manual at our house. I learned the basics and soon I was editing layouts. I wasn't much of a layout changer so Thief's Stolen Collections survived with only 2 premade layouts. Soon, I was getting BORED with premade layouts. I decided to practice my photoshop skills and make my own like Steph. At first, my layout was supposed to be a panda under cherry blossoms on a starry night EXCEPT the background image I used was copyrighted to kagaya.com only hence I wasn't able to use it. It was a beautiful layout for me though because I loved the violet colors and the panda. It took me a VERY LONG time to finish it but all my efforts proved to be in vain. The spark of making a layout vanished and was just recently revived. I was determined to make one and Winnie the Pooh came to my mind. Why Winnie the Pooh? I have no idea. Maybe it was because of him being a bear but anyways, Winnie the Pooh sounded good and voila!
PAST LAYOUTS
POOH'S PARADISE V.1
Born on: June 26, 2005
Well this was my very 1st layout so pardon for the childish image. It took me a very long time to think of what image to use. Winnie the Pooh just suddenly came to my mind and before I knew it, my hands were working on their own and this is the result! It lasted me for 5 months and I'm happy. =)
STARING UNDER THE SKY
Born on: Dec. 27, 2005
This is my 2nd layout featuring a vectorized (my first vector! Not too good..) bird (i'm not sure the species) on a branch staring under the velvet (violet) sky. When I was thinking of a new layout, I wanted it to have a touch of Christmas but not in the commercial way (gifts, lights etc). I wanted to show the true meaning of Christmas and I also wanted a layout that would last me for months (I'm a lazy bum.. hehe). Inspiration struck when our English teacher asked us to make a Korean Sijo (in English that is) and what i wrote about was a bird anticipating the birth of Christ. Though Christmas has gone, I still wish the feeling of Christmas will continue the whole year. This lasted me for a month (oMG 1 month lang?) but I may use it again. I really liked it! hehe
PINKISH BEAR REALITY
Given on: Jan. 4,2006
Added on: Jan. 27, 2006
This layout was a gift from my adorable online sister,
Ate Kitty! Isn't it beautiful? I was really surprised when she gave me this because I didn't know that anyone would go so much trouble for giving me a gift.. wahhz.. Love ya ate! :heart
Saturday, October 20, 2007
Retrospection
PLUGS: Everyone
EDIT**
On a lighter note for my blog, Ate Kitty still remembers me and gave me this UUBBERR CUUTEE Halloween giftie and a fabulous award!! Sniff... thank you soo much Ate for remembering me!! I've been such a sloth in the blogging world and yet you still remembered me....Yey for witches!! hehe
This is such a bad way to go back to blogging but I needed to vent my... confusions. I feel so angry and alone all the time that it somehow threatens to shatter the sphere that I've surrounded myself in. I want to let it out but I can't. I'm so confused now with my life, my friends, and my ideals. I feel like I don't know anyone anymore and I feel like I'm being selfish for thinking of this. I feel so jealous too for no goshdarn reason. I want i want i want, it's all i ever think about? Am I deprived from luxuries? No! I try so hard to think of people less fortunate than I am but how come the feeling won't leave? Please God I hope that I am not straying from your path.
I feel like such a failure. I try to project to people that I'm strong or whatever, you know, the tough guy effect but I don't know how I can pull it off much l0nger. No this isn't a suicidal thing, I'm too chicken to kill myself. I guess I'm just depressed. I need to find my path again. I need to reflect on my life.... I wish I could go somewhere and think this over....
God sees the truth but waits... waits for what? Does God wait for us? I think He does. He waits for us to find ourselves... but I hope that God can hear me... I can't find myself alone... I hope He does help me...
See ya guys.... ='(
Labels: depressed, gifts, morbid
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stolen @ 9:54 PM
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